Beautiful Disaster.

horoscope says i shouldn't mingle with people today and i should have listened so now i'm sort of in trouble with my dad. cos he's pissed that i keep going out. well well.. homework here i come !

know what.. i miss jaryl. i don't know why. i just think i'm very stupid but bah i guess he won't want to go back yah. sighs maybe too many things happening at the same time clogged up my mind and made me unable to think. either way it was a stupid way to end it. the best part is that his rose hasn't even dried up yet. its still hanging to dry at my window. so when i'm doing my homework at night and everyone else is probably asleep i think how dumb i am. and i feel like crying but i told arica that it was stupid to cry over some guy and that i wouldn't. so all i can do is try my best..

maybe i think too much, expect too much, been hurt too much ... maybe the problem is just me.. yes yes i think it is.

anyway. i just miss you for some reason i can't explain

if only.. i didn't think about you so much, if only i wasn't so alone. if only i could throw the rose away but i just can't bear to.

anyway. here's a story, its quite amusing..

recall my first time with a condom....I was 16 or
so. I went in to
buy a package of condoms. There was a beautiful
woman behind the
counter and, she could see that I was new at it.
She handed me the package and asked if I knew
how to wear one.
I honestly answered, "No."
So she unwrapped the package, took one out, and
slipped over her
thumb. She cautioned me to make sure it was on
tight and secure. I
apparently still looked confused so, she looked all
around the store.
It was empty. She said, "Just a minute," and
walked to the door and
locked it.

Taking my hand, she led me into the back room,
unbuttoned her blouse,
and removed it. She unhooked her bra and laid it
aside. She asked,
"Do these excite you?"
Well, I was SO dumb-struck that all I could do was
nod my head.
She then said it was time to slip the condom on.
As I was slipping it
on, she dropped her skirt, removed her panties,
and laid down on a
desk.
"Well, come on," she said, "we don't have much
time."
So I climbed on her. It was so wonderful that,
unfortunately, I could
no longer hold back and..........POW, I was done
within a few minutes.
She looked at me with a frown. "Did you put that
condom on?" I
said, "I sure did," and held up my thumb to show
her.

*Pass this on or You will End up Pregnant By the
End of the Year*

shoE was here with you at 7:12 PM .