YSaturday, December 31, 2005
and because sometimes i feel quite awkward and don't know what to say and don't really know how to react. i don't think i'll want to be in any touchy relationship soon. hmmm i've been in relationships before but maybe cos we were all younger and were all innocent and everything but now i realise i don't really want some guy touching me and putting his hand on my butt or putting his arm around my waist. not now anyway. or cos i'm just not the very touchy sort. hahas. anyway. today had cell group meeting around derek's place. we had games and a bbq. was very very fun. its the last cg of 2005 although i've only been to 2 lar. hahas. i'm so happy that 2005 has been such an eventful year for me. its the year that i was touched by the Lord. He's brought a new meaning to my life. and God is a great God he'll help me through all the tough times and bless my life in melbourne. whoo i'm sort of excited to go there and yet i'm afraid . 2006 is going to be a new adventure. but while we make new friends and start a new chapter of our life, lets not forget old friends ok . even those that we don't really like. cos everyone you meet makes an impact on your life. yupp so thats all. don't think i'll be updating tomorrow cos i'm going to malaysia for countdown think i'll be back on sunday so i don't know if i can still go out with janica elaine and trix. hahas and cheryl dearest is in derek's OG how lucky
yesterday i was watching the previous season of america's next top model which i downloaded. kahlen was saying about how she was never very comfortable being close to guys and stuff and i just thought that i was the same. 10 years of being in a girls school means that i never really had chances to interact with guys in a sort of normal schooling environment, so i don't really know what to say when i'm with a guy. its different when you're out with one that you're already friends with. like at camps, or at chalet or you just talk to them its quite different. but i realised that if i had the choice i wouldn't go and mix around with the guys haha its weird in a way because i have quite a few guy friends but i'm still quite awkward around them like their some different species hahas i just find it weird that i'm like that. hoho
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