YThursday, April 13, 2006
my mummy bought me a new ipod ! cos I’ve been such a good girl by being really honest with her about all the stuff I do in Melbourne. Or rather all the rather naughty stuff I’ve done there which I normally wouldn’t have done if I stayed in Singapore. well well. Now I’ve a bit lost my train of thought. Because its like when you start thinking about stuff you need to write them down immediately but if you imagine you’re me and you’re sitting around impatiently waiting for the computer to be free and at the same time trying to run all the thoughts you want to blog about in your head, trying to remember the exact words I thought of then it actually isn’t as simple as it seems. I’m a mind-map sort of person where I think I need to write down the main ideas or I’ll forget them. Like if I talk to someone and I suddenly think of something and at the same time I don’t want to butt in then I’ll forget what I want to say. It’s a bad habit ! but I don’t really think there’s anything I can do about it so these are my recent thoughts. or rather the ones that I can remember. one day, I came back from a movie with my friends in Melbourne and other people were asking how the movie was. My friend summed up the movie in like less than ten words and I said the movie was really good then proceeded to try to describe the movie in the most summarized way I can. Then my friend said “ see. That’s the difference between a seven pointer and a 16pointer.(ok I don’t know if its 16 or whatever but its somewhere along there ok *hahas)” now thinking about it, I suddenly wonder if I’m that different from people. Is it just the way I am ?? is it that I’m a bit different from the majority of people ? like God made me special for a reason ?? hmmm suddenly this thought came over me today along the way. Oh well this isn’t really important. ps: I realize this is coming out in quite perfect English cos I’m typing this as a word document so they automatically eradicate errors and correct spelling mistakes. And this looks like its going to be a VERY very long post. just now I went out with NCO people today. Met yiangshan, libing, fadhli, aizat, sarah, Melissa. Its been a long long time since I’ve went out with a group of people and laughed so much. I mean not like I don’t laugh a lot with my friends in Melbourne, but its different. Cos they’re friends that I’ve been hanging out with for like close to a year already. In a way, its hard like letting go of such a wonderful friendship. Not like letting go. But…. You know what I mean right. Not the splitting sort of meaning. Yesh well well. We ate burger king. Finally ate mushroom swiss double. Whee. After like a gazillion years. so I was talking to sarah. Then she told me something. About a guy. Concerning me. So I don’t want to dwell into stuff that has already happened and is long over. Lif just has to go on right. So it got me thinking about what things would be like if I didn’t go. Like after all this time I still haven’t figured out the reason why I chose to leave and study in a foreign country.- 1) my parents forced me?? (no. they didn’t force me) 2)my parents are trying to get rid of me ?? (I should think not because they didn’t force me 3)I was trying to run away from my problem with the golfing issue ?? (I’m not really one to run away from stuff although I do avoid my problems till they go away but then I don’t think that was a BIG issue like I wondered whether subconsciously I chose to go because of that but it doesn’t sound right) 4) I found studying in Singapore too stressful ?? ( I try to do my best in tough situations and I think I excel with some stress. And besides, I think I would have just gone to poly if I had stayed in singapore so…. And I did get 7 points in the O’s. not to brag or anything. But everyone thinks it’s a waste to do so well but go overseas. 5) I wanted to gain exposure ? and get an experience of a lifetime ?? ( maybe… i think either way, it would have been anexperience of a lifetime. Because you’re only 17 once. Either you spend mugging in Singapore. Or in Melbourne. You can’t have it in between. so I guess its sort of a mixture of everything including some others which I haven’t really thought about YET. Because people are constantly asking me the same question and I’m constantly trying to come up with reasonable answers. So .. yah give me some time. When I finally find the answer somewhere deep inside my heart. Then I know I’ll be willing to share with people. hohums. such a long long thing. ok so where was i ?? i just transferred my typing to my com. and i'm doing it directly into blogger so i don't have to be ma fan later. oh well. hmmm okok now i remember. today someone told me i'm a very deep thinker. and thats what makes my blog a nice one to read because i tap into my innermost feelings and don't mind sharing stuff about me with people. i always thought no one read y blog. but maybe the numbers have gone up because i'm in melbourne so people become more curious about my otherwise mundane life. waah something i realised is that the more you type, the better your english becomes. for me that is. like nice vocab start popping to my head and the words flow out of my fingertips. hahas. like silver sparks of inspiration -- ah this is the effect of the literature i've been studying. two months of poems.[rowing in Eden, ah the sea might i moor- tonight in thee] hahas. i still remember ! and [so much depends upon a red wheel barrow glazed with rain water beside the white chickens] maybe i should put up my essay i prepared for the exam on my analysis of the poems . haha. quite embarassing lar. don't want. oh then yah i really think i think a lot into things. i remember a point in my life where i chatted with tim frequently. then he kept saying i think too much. like i have nothing better to do with my time on the bus lar. my one hour bus rides from cedar. then i used to think about what could happen on the bus. like something romantic. such as errr... i drop my stuff and this cute guy will help me to pick them up. then we become friends and things like that. hahas. that time i was super boliao i think. or maybe the effects of too much chinese drama serials. then after that when i stopped watching them, i also stopped thinking about these dumb thoughts. *notice i stoned there to think of a word to describe how boliao they are. but no word comes to my mind except boliao. lolx yah. well its funny how everything links to each other and they don't link on purpose. like how sarah was talking about tim not meeting up with us because he wants to watch his rugby thingie or something. then it made me think of that point of time where i told him about my silly thoughts. then later on the bus she suddenly started saying the part how i'm a deep thinker. then it brought my thoughts back to tim again. hahas. funny lar life so... yah. just now i was on my way home and this scary man tried to make friends with me. it's the first time a stranger has come up and talked to me lar so obviously i don't really know what to do and stuff. so i tried to handle it as best as i could. except for the time in sec2 after national day celebration and this guy was asking me whether i would like to act in a movie. hahas. that its not any indecent movie or anything. i don't know what happened to the movie though. but who cares lar. freako ! yah so he said what.. you're a very cute girl. has any guy ever told you that. hahas. i bet he has nothing better to do but come up with this sort of cheesy pickup line. yep my sister is currently doing this business programme thing. we decided to hold a garage sale at my house on good friday. which is like tomorrow right. yupps. selling stuff like jewellery 3 for $10 and they're really nice stuff. and nice cards. inspirational books and things like that. used clothes are like 50cents apiece if i'm not wrong. cool right. so people come down to my house ok. bring your friends and all. aunties. uncles. there's something for everyong. kids even err... what else do i want to type about ?? aaah... ooh ok i just did my hair. in a way i feel like i look older. yet nicer. yet like a bit more exciting. and it was quite ex. but sounds like normal price. aargh. this is weird lar. hmmm.. lots of scandalous things seem to be happening to me recently. this has no link lar. but i think that i'm quite weird. maybe within this short period of time i've been sort of forced to grow up and mature. or maybe i was just this way all along before i even went to melbourne. hahas ooh ok now i'm getting quite random. cos its 3.22am singapore time. so its 5.22 melbourne time. i asked fred to go bathe so i can chat with him properly after i finish this. looks like he fell asleep in the toilet. hahas oh hohos. i forgot what i wanted to say AGAIN ! darn so thats all for now i guess. till next time ! take care. i love you i wonder what i'd do without the people who are the most important to me ooh ok i finally remembered what i wanted to blog about. it's about studying in melbourne. like i'm not as hardworking as i was in singapore. like there doesn't really seem to be a need to be. but all the free time seems a bit unnerving for me. to have so much free time with nothing to do. makes me wonder whether there are stuff i haven't done. because, i'm so used to that sort of life, rushing around, homework !
‘t gLets see. My sister is using the computer to do the stuff for our garage sale on Friday. So I currently feel like blogging. I suddenly thought of a lot of stuff to blog about but then I don’t have the chance to do it directly. So I’m currently using my laptop so type out what I feel first then I’ll just transfer it using my ipod ! heh . happy happy
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