Beautiful Disaster.

joel started telling us all that his family was bringing his girlfriend over to visit on saturday. which is today. and he told us that his girlfriend is very short and is very hot. everyone was quite excited to see 'her' , we were all bugging him what her name was and how she looked like and wanting to see her photo. in the end... we all found out his girlfriend was HIS SKATEBOARD ! hahas. yes lar she's quite hot ! and she is pretty ! whooo. and i was trying to do tricks on his skateboard but quite unsuccessful. joel the most pok. he ripped part of his nail off his skin and it looked really painful. eeks. hope he feels better.
ooh and i'm realy hapy for twiggie for some reason. AHEMS. she's really blessed. may the Lord continue to work His way through her. i miss you loads twix !! and i miss a lot of people. hmmm if only i could bring all my friends here . like not really THEM. err. like they're physically in sg but then they can split into two people.. like in Xmen3 . the guy who can be lots of people. hahas.
kk going for HOT CHIPS ! yummy then bring them back to share the LOVE !

shoE was here with you at 12:31 AM .

yesterday about eighteen of us from albert house went to watch x men 3 !! whoo. the last stand or something. hmmm was not as nice as i expected although i didn't watch number two. jane didn't do anything just stand around use eye power hahas. and then so sad scott and the prof died. oops sorry if anyone who hasn't watched yet is reading this. aaah to think qi and i cried when the professor died . ooh but they show a lot of different mutants who have all sorts of different powers. and the blue skin girl.. she got the cure and she became normal again haha.
i think we are really kiasu. we went to buy the tickets for friday's movie on wednesday and good thing we did because they were sold out on friday. whoa. so many trinity people were watching at the same time. hahas.
ok i have to chiong my HOI essay.
Q1:what arguments do the Athenians use to defend their actions in war? Discuss the validity of these arguments.

woah sounds really deep eh .

planet shakers are launching their new CD tomorrow !! aah i can't wait ! whoo. i'm listening to michael buble !! heh. he rocks !

this is me qi and ah beng being nonsense with the aussie flag ! whoo

this is us on the way to fed square

this is all of us at fed square. notice mike ?? and there's some stranger

thats leslie and the guy that wong and qi think are so cute in the background. can see ?? - the guy with dark hair

this is supposed to be me and qi acting lesbo, but somehow drew's face go poke inside and the picture became wth .. hahas

shoE was here with you at 6:53 PM .

today is one of the most significant days of my life.
i watched my first full soccer match. it was a friendsly match between Australia and greece. hahas. we went to watch at the big screen at federation square and it was quite exciting. you could really feel the excitement when australia scored a goal. who
joel, ah beng and i bought australian flags. joel's was the big one for 3 dollars while ours was the small one for two dollars. hahas. kind of not worth it right
australians love smoking a lot i think because it was so stinky there. eeks. but then i guess we just have to put up with the smell. and the greek supporters were playing with flares haha. i don't really know what they are but they let out a really big red flame and lots and lots of smoke. aparently they aren't supposed to but they don't care anyway. hahas. on the way back we met a group of greek supporters again at russell street which is like their turf. and the police came hahas. and the greeks didn't care they just continued posing for the camera lolx.
australia won 1-0
hohos. now i kind of understand why people like watching soccer. although i don't really understand the rules, i think its really quite exciting to watch. not all the time though. hahas.
i realised that there are a lot of cute guys and girls in melbourne and since we're here now, i think maybe we'll start to be influenced by them to become really good looking too. hahas.
today has been a good day whoo.

shoE was here with you at 9:04 PM .

hmmm. today trinity had this autumn music concert. was ok except for some off key parts and some boring parts shall not elaborate. i realised i get quite affected by my friends. aiyaii. and today i felt crappy again. not sure what the reason was but ... anyway

yesterday was my sister's birthday
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JIEJIE !
heh. hope you got my present and you're using it.
not much to blog about recently i think thats why i haven't een blogging. just that i got high on vegetables last night and i ate green tea and mint ice cream on a cone which made the whole ice cream very green. which was like the green vegggies i got high on. hahas. what a green day
and yesterday's dance class was super fun !! i have now understood the turnings and everything muah hahahs.. but then when i danced with han... aiyah faint already. couldn't catch up lolx.
never mind . i hae one more chance next week lolx

shoE was here with you at 7:04 PM .

haha. i think i'm coming down with the flu. i have a bit of a sore throat and a runny nose. boo. no more biscuits and cold drinks for the time being. and no chocolate bleahx. its about 615 in singapore now. in the morning. lolx. this would be the normal time i'd be waking up . hmmm. today i woke up early, to do my HOI essay . the plan is due tomorrow and i haven't even started yet. sheesh.

yesterday dance class was super fun ! we learnt like don't know what turn and some swop sides thing but its really cool and everyone's improving ! whoo.

oh man. i forgot what i wanted to blog about .. hmmmm ooh ok . i saw him again yesterday. maybe its fate eh .. lolx

i'm having chemistry practical today and its one where we don'thave to bring anything because we're not doing experiments. we're going to be looking at the structure of molecules. as in not though a microscope but at models. haha no not those tall poles you see strutting down a runway but those balls joined together to form some hexagonal close packing structure and stuff.. hahas i just sneezed again !! grrr. its kinda cold at my table so i'm using my laptop on the floor muah haha. probably gonna shift my table . like turn it to not face the window. if not i'll be so cold all the time.

oh thought of the day : ever wondered why your mind seems to not think as well when you walk really quickly ??

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hmmm.. today i was walking to class and i saw him again. don't know if i still find him as cute anymore lolx.

oh well. i'm so in bg trouble. i said something stupid and i think its all going to snowball and come back to haunt me sooner or later when something bad happens. sighs. me and my big mouth again. causing unnecessary trouble all the time. haiyah. or maybe i'm just thinking too much again. maybe its true that this person doesn't deserve my sympathy because of the kind of person he/she is. maybe.. maybe i'm just too nice ?? hahas

why why why ... aiyah i was going to type my thought of the day but i forgoit already. all cos of the chem lecture lar. bah but this is one of the few times i actually understand what she's talking about. aaah i think i'm going to die cos of all the stress this situation is giving me.
sighs. but it really is comforting to know that amidst all the chaos i create, which isn't intentional and doesn't actually affect anyone.. there are still so many people who care for me and encourage me. esp people like my family, and even friends that i haven't known for a very long time.

hmmm.. i'm happy for jm cos he's back together with liane ! yay. i'm just happy for my friends if they are happy. hee

maybe i really am not very good at lying. not very good at being courageous. not very good at pretending i'm strong. but i'm working at it. i won't cry over silly things. i won't let myself get down or hurt cos if i look down on myself then i give others the right to look down on me and that sucks. i've made to omany wrong decisions over here, done too many stupid things all in th time span of what three months.

oh well. thought of the day: i think angels exist as part of people close to you, who help you and give you strength. are you also an angel towards someone else ?? i just wish that i will be one to someone some day...

i don't know how to end this on a happy note.

anyway go check out that website on top ok ! cos the website is quite cool. hee

wouldn't it be nice to have someone to share all your troubles with . to share the burden, someone other than God. even if that person can't even help u in your situation.

shoE was here with you at 3:17 PM .

i think ever since i've come to Melbourne i've been moving away from God. i don't think its influences from other people because in Singapore i wasn't really close to Him although i wanted to be. but then i think i came here telling myself that i wouldn't grow distant from Him and then i did. so today i decided to take a step in faith and go up again during alter call to get reconnected with God. and now i'm so happy. i'm so happy for all the other people who got saved today too.. hee hee. i'm just so thankful for everything God has done in my life. and i used to kind of resent the fact that i never felt God telling me something before. but then today i think God told me to not be enemies with someone. and also told me to go up again to be reconnected with Him. that i will do my devotion. i saw the families go up on stage to dedicate their babies into God's hands. and i was just thinking if i would be able to do the same; to teach my children the ways of God when i get married and everything. hmmm. oh well. that we'll find out when the time comes since God has a great plan ahead of me. He will guide me in whatever decisions.

oh well. after that we went out for dinner at this jap place and neo went on a photo frenzy. being the cam-whore he is hahas. taking so many many photos. the food was good ! whee..

ooh and last night tiana, wong, qi and i went to max B's again. heh gonna be so fat. there's now chocolate therapy i think cos after all the chocolate, wong's sore throat got better ! now she can talk again. good job partner !

eat more chocolate

do i look intoxicated by the chocolate ??

the delicious belgium waffles with ice cream and strawberries. mouthwatering !

shoE was here with you at 8:31 PM .

hello. i woke up at two o'clock today how pro is that. but then i finished my EAP essay plan so now i feel quite accomplished. last night was watching full metal panic ! whoo. its super nice and the guy is oh so cute ! hahas

last night qi and i ran out before midnight to eat freddo's but they were aleady closed and to think sign on the door dares to say " open 12.30pm till late" grrr.... so we went to monte's instead and they had APPLE PIE flavour, heh. i ate apple pie and blood orange(orange sherbert) hahas. they have to give it such a chim name right. qi had err. apple pie and short dark (basically coffee) we went to lygon park to sit in front of the blue lights. hmmm. actually its called argyle square.

so she was saying how nice it would be to have a nice strong bf to lean on in the cold. so i said i'll be her bf. hahas. and then she tried to lean on my shoulders and then she complained that my shoulders weren't broad enough. so i said NO i have broad shoulders ok hahas. so now she's calling BSBF broad shoulders boyfriend. hahas and she's my DCGF damn chio girlfriend. *pukes. since the broad shoulders is fake then the damn chio must be fake too lolx.

heh. yesterday we had BIG NOISE. where supposedly ALL trinity students come together to play percussion instruments and have lots of fun and make lots of noise. whee. but before that we bought posters at union house ..

ah hahas. this is a photo of ALMOST all the albert house people with the band at BIG NOISE. notice the cool bald guy at the back. whoo. he's so COOL.
row1: me , wenqi, christine teo
row2:yichian, lilian, christine lim, beng sze, neo, steven, poh
row3:andrew being blocked by someone's hand. see him ?? hahas.
last row: the band people !

thats me with this really nice poster i wanted to buy to put in front of my bed so that i can have nice dreams of the beach at the sunset. but its quite big so ... didn't get it haha. andrew's quite good phototaking compared to mine...

heh ..

hmm/ this is my attempt to make their picture look like their being shot. dance or you die !

hahas
thought of the day: do we really have to judge our friends based on the things they do to other people when we don't really know their rationale to doing it in the first place.

whenchee is nice but i am nicer, hahas

shoE was here with you at 1:55 PM .

aiyerr.. syafiq is a-LIVE ! in his room now. muah hahas. we had a nice talk today on the way home hee hee. and i got full metal panic from syafiq i hope its a super nice show!

hmmm.. thought of the day: oreos have two sides to them . if the cream side would give you a tummy ache but the non cream side has no taste. which would u eat ??

of course. the cream side right. hahas. cos cream is so YUMMY !

coincidences are so good. they sort of happen for a reason without the person actually wanting it to happen yet thinking that it would be nice if it would happen. heh

BREATHE... fu carp. in and out.. hahas its breathe in breathe out in canto. but it sounded like full cup .. hahas. like bra size and stuff. X) funny

shoE was here with you at 3:27 PM .

hmmm. i've been coming to the library quite often these days. i didn't eat lunch today. was doing my maths 2 in the library cos i have only one period today. i'm blogging while standing up. how cool is that ?? and the andrew's shanghai girl is standing beside me. hahas

whenchee says HI !!

hmmm..... its super uber cold today. why does it have to choose to be so cold when i'm wearing a skirt and even my thick jacket isn't thick enough. should have worn my winter jacket man. grrr. i don't feel like leaving the library anymore. i went out for two minutes and i'm freezing again. i think its what winter will feel like. but winter won't be AS BAD AS today cos we'll be in all thermal wear and everything, the entire suit ! hahas

thought of the day: if you were going to go to some place far away and could give your happiness to someone, all your happy memories and everything. who would it be ??

the friend who is so sad that suicide is practically the only thought in their mind ?? or the one that you don't love but whom you know loves you dearly and will miss you without having you around??

yesterday i was super brain dead. didn't have any thoughts of the day. so here !!

was supposed to go to watch mission impossible three with chua and all. but cos dance ended late, we didn't go. then all the albert house guys wanted to go watch so we braved the rain and went. but we realised that tickets were thirty dollars. hahas. so in the end, we went to max brenner's .
we realised that the max B. at QV and melbourne central are wuite different. the belgium waffles at melb. central are so much cooler. cos they're served with strawberries, chocolate and ic cream. whee. next time i'll eat the chocolate lick,. pure chocolate that you eat... ~~ OMG, pure heaven i tell you .

hha. i feel hardworking today ! muah hahas

this is going to be the start of something nonsense

wenqi is smart but I AM SMARTER !

*grins X)

shoE was here with you at 1:48 PM .

i'm in the library yet again and there's no library shuai ge. but then i didn't come here to see him i wanted to borrow books but there aren't anymore. nevermind i will come tomorrow. must look through my HOI tonight then i can come and look at the books tomorrow morning. whee. eh no AFTERNOON.

just had big noise. was quite fun. i played the claves thing. whoo.

having dance club later. heh heh . kk gonna be fun !

wenqi is disappointed cos she can't see library shuai ge. but she says he's ugly. so wtv. hahas

kk. maybe we gonna watch MI3 ! heh

shoE was here with you at 10:56 AM .

today i met library shuai ge again !! hahas. but could only admire him from a distance. aiyerr. i feel so stalker-ish now ! but then i'm not expecting to really make friends or for anything to happen between us lolx.

whee. but i just feel quite happy lar to even see him. oh man. but i think this year might be his last year already unless he does honours next year. ninghui saw him and she says he's above average ! heh .. and that he doesn't look old. la la la.

but then i went to chem lecture and i couldn't concentrate, and then after that i got a headache. couldn't even answer poh properly.

now qiqi is in my room listening to chinese songs and her heart is melting !! okok . I LOVE WHENCHEE

in the afternoon we had some sex talk. saying that its ok to say "NO" to sex and alcohol. if you decide to say "yes" use a condom. hahs quite amusing and thats its not right to sexual harass someone. wong and i started this

"hello hello shaaye just did something loserish n yes she loves me!! yay!! oh n her pink speaker sucks cos no music can come out from it. n the battery leaked. eww. n her stupid chocolate is damn addictive ahhh!! our diet plan shaaye! ;("

shoE was here with you at 5:20 PM .

today on my way back with wong and qiqi, it suddenly rained very heavily and we didn't have umbrellas. hahas. we couldn't even run cos wong's legs hurt due to yesterday's tennis with andrew. aiyoh. i walked all the way home when they walked to swanston and lincoln square. aiyaii. poor me. was totally drenched and i was carrying qiqi's library books under my jacket. haahas super funny. you could see one weird box-ish bulge at my left pocket.

then a thought occurred to me.

thought of the day:: if it was raining, who would you shelter if you only had one umbrella. your girlfriend/boyfriend or your best friend.

hmmm.. picture this. you see your best friend waiting for the rain to stop and start walking towards him/her. then you see your boyfriend/girlfriend. so who would you share your umbrella with.

1.pretend you didn't see them and hurry rush off

2.give to both your best friend and boyfriend/girlfriend while you walk in the rain

3.whatever your own response.

hahas. this is uber lame. but at least its not one like who would you save if bothyour mother and your girlfriend drown in the sea. cos likely that they both can swim to go swimming in the sea and if they're both drowning you could be in danger of drowning yourself so the conclusion is that you can't save anyone. must save yourself ! or you die. hahas

i think if i'm the best friend and my friend wants to share the umbrella with me. i would tell him/her to go share with his/her boyfriend/girlfriend instead . lolx.

random post lar. i can't even believe i typed three posts in ONE day. omg

shoE was here with you at 3:05 PM .

today's the first day in a long long time i've woken up early in the morning to study. hahas then qiqi and i came to leeper library where i am now to start on our hoi essay. don't think i'll be able to start till a long time more. cos i need to read the sources. analyse them, then figure out what my argument will be and everything. aiyaii. i'm not a very organised person so i don't think i'm GREAT at writing essays. bah.

just now while photocopying stuff. i met this really cute guy. omg. cos i was taking my time photocopying, making sure i dont do something stupid like photocopy with one whole row of words missing only to find out i did it after actually completing the photocopying so... i took quite a while. lolx.

then this guy was standing near me and i thought he wanted to use the machine for awhile so i asked him
"do you only need to print a few pages?? i can let you go first"
he said "no i'm printing something. where are you from.

me: "singapore"

him:'me too. oh that must be my stuff."

me:"oh *stones"

*his papers finish printing then he said:"ok see you around"

oh hohos. today is a happy day !!

i'm so going to do extra devotion tonight. !! yippee !

lets just leave it all to fate ok . cos even the person who believes strongly in fate has found the girl of his dreams so i'm going to leave everything in God's hands. and let Him do His work

shoE was here with you at 10:39 AM .

last night i realised that there are a lot of things i have never done before. i watched my friend's video where they took the video cam up on the roller coaster. about twelve of them went up to genting for a holiday. stayng there for 3D2N just to go explore everything. cool right. some day i'll do that too. hmmm i'm in the comp lab listening to corrinne may. and there's this other guy trying to compete music with me. the comp lab is quite funny. they turned oo the music setting. i mean its on MUTE but the comp idiot - me ! managed to find where to click for the sound to come out on a MAC. waah hahas. maybe next time i'll get a mac. then i'll learn how to use all the animation stuff then i can make cool videos and edit images and stuff. then everyone will praise me for being so good at the computer. la dee da. someday. ooh must do two essays this term. i'm such a lazy person to go research and type stuff. haiyah.one good thing i did was that i helped syafiq to print his HOI stuff ytd. i just use the comp click 'print' 'print' 'print' hahas. whoo. i'm such a kind soul. la dee da. no more indomie for 4/5/6 don't know how many days. diet ! when i go back in december i'm going to be like how chio man. haha. no one will recognise me

shoE was here with you at 7:23 AM .

hello whenchee. ok i'm in my room and syafiq is in here and we're seriously jobless. he's doing photoshop on his photos. one of him in the ' mailbox' ? but his leg is sticking out. and now doing the one with him neo and i in our boxers. my spongebobs , syafiq's spiderman and neo's capcom VS something. aiyah theirs are omg silky ok . hahas. super funny. and i'm err.. chatting. although i was supposed to STUDY. but don't care lar. catch up on chem sometime soon. this term i'm so slack .

yesterday's lit. class was so boring. aiyaii. bozzi was talking so slowly and softly- as usual. but one funny thing is that he's funny when he's being sarcastic or something. he said that teenagers are weird. they like to talk in analogies. because we use the word ' like ' so much. eg; " thats like so hot " hahas. <----NEO. hoho. someday i'll post a photo of him lar. SOMEDAY. it means that its not actually hot. its like hot. and he said ' i don't know what they mean by that ' hahas. quite amusing right my funny literature tutor

shoE was here with you at 9:34 PM .

aiyah . just now the stupid MAC compputer in the comp lab amazingly ate my blog post and i couldn't find where to open it again. blame it on my IT idiotic-ness.

i hear knocks on the door, someone wanting to get in . but heck, he can wait outside lolx. hmmm now i can't think of what to type.

after the holidays, my brain has been lazing, waiting to be shaken awake again i hope. grrr. this is hard. how come i have friends who can writ e so beautifully, using analogies and all sorts of flowery language. its hard to type like them. i've been in this place for over an hour. but oh well. i'm going home for dinner soon.

thought for the day: what would u do if you found out that you were going to lose your eyesight in a week??

how come now my brain can't think of what i wanted to type just now ? ah . yes. i think life these days is getting complicated to understand what you are trying to say. especially in draggy soppy korean drama serials that make you cry at the end regardless of age or race or sex. hahas. and actually i find it funny too. because when i talk to people, do i really say what i mean. do people actually understand what i'm trying to say and do they know when i am joking. has my humour flown away out of the aeroplane window on my way back to melbourne. how come i don't laugh as much as i used to. i don't find as many things funny. i don't laugh for no reason, or for the reason that i JUST WANT TO LAUGH often enough. i don't think enough. sometimes i don't know why i do the things i do and what i want to achive by doing them. a lot of the things are pointless. redundant things. and a lot of times i feel things that i don't think i should feel. things that are so trivial, yet i get caught up in it. maybe my time's not fully utilised enough. hmmm. my friend said :"if you look down on yourself then u give me the right to look down on you". i used to be a cheerful person with little worries but now... small things can get me down. make me upset and stuff. and i don't think its healthy. i'm doing my best though. and after this ranting i think these bad emotions will go away. *POOF like dust.

yeah! and i'm consoled because i'm coming back again in june. whee

i'm thinking of joining some club or something. probably dance. they're doing swing this term heh . sounds cool

shoE was here with you at 3:28 PM .

aiyah . just now the stupid MAC compputer in the comp lab amazingly ate my blog post and i couldn't find where to open it again. blame it on my IT idiotic-ness.

i hear knocks on the door, someone wanting to get in . but heck, he can wait outside lolx. hmmm now i can't think of what to type.

thought for the day: what would u do if you found out that you were going to lose your eyesight in a week??

yeah! and i'm consoled because i'm coming back again in june. whee

shoE was here with you at 3:28 PM .

Your Funny Costume Is

Bumble Bee

What Funny Costume Are You?

shoE was here with you at 3:15 PM .

Your Cute Sweater Is

Leopard Miss Button

What's Your Cute Sweater?

shoE was here with you at 3:09 PM .

oh freak. i'm so going to kill blogger. or mozilla firefox. grrr. i so don't know how to use it. aaah .. HOW !!?? WHERE DID WHAT I TYPE GO !!?? omg.. can't find it ! . eeks.
anyway. shall cut it short then . no mood to continue blogging. i finished watching stairway to heaven and its super sad. haiyah

shoE was here with you at 3:06 PM .

whee. i got A+ for the past two practicals i did and today i had my third. i finished an hour early. whoopie. hmmm.. how come over here i hardly do silly things that i can type here and people will laugh..

thought of the day: what would you do if you found out you could lose your eyesight totally in a week ??

br>hho. we finallly finished watching stairway to heaven and the ending was REALLY REALLY sad. the girl got eye tumor. and lost her eyesight but then she still married the guy she loved. so her step brother who was in love with her commmitted suicide to donate his eyes to her so she could see... think its a happy ending ?? NO... she finds out that the tunor has spread to her brain and she will die anyway. sad eh ..

even the guys cried. shhh don't tell people ok . it'll be quite embarassing. its quite funny actually how guys aren't supposed t cry in this society but then i think if girls know that they cry, they'll be more likely to fall in love with them because they'll come off as sensitive guys and girls will feel like at least the guy has a weak spot some where and he's not always trying to act so tough and macho. i don't know. i'm not an expert on love issues. oh well.

i found it pretty amusing how there can be a show in a show where people come to see the people watching the show cry instead of the show. hahas. i think stairway to heaven is a pretty draggy show but thats the characteristics of a korean drama right. and it can have a few climaxes- sad parts that make u cry. all in one episode. aiyaii. but last night was THE BEST. da bomb hahas. cos the last three episodes were the most impacting. where the stepbrother committed suicide to give her the eyes. to be part of her, and to let her see the world through HIS eyes. cool eh . he really loved her SO MUCH... X(

omg. i just found my post. aiyoh. so stupid

shoE was here with you at 2:51 PM .

Your Element is Earth

Your power color: yellow

Your energy: balancing

Your season: changing of seasons

Dedicated and responsible, you are a rock to your friends.
You are skilled at working out even the most difficult problems.
Low key and calm, you are happiest when you are around loved ones.
Ambitious and goal oriented, you have long term plans to be successful.

What Element Are You?

shoE was here with you at 6:23 PM .

You Are Skinny Heel Boots

You always look great - from your styled hair to your sleek boots.

What Kind of Boots Are You?

shoE was here with you at 6:17 PM .

You Are Not a Gold Digger

You go out of your way to take care of everything in your life.
Including money - which you've got plenty of, thank you very much.
And you have no intentions of being a trophy girlfriend for some bald guy.
Just make sure that hottie you met isn't scheming to be your boy toy!
As a successful woman like you knows, gold digging goes both ways these days.

Are You A Gold Digger?

shoE was here with you at 6:12 PM .

its a long long journey till i find my way home to you. many days... i've spent, drifting off onto empty shores. wondering whats my purpose. wondering how to make me strong. i know i will falter i know i will cry i know you will be standing by my side. for long long journey. and i need to be close to you. sometimes it feels no one understands. i don't even know why i do the things i do. when pride builds me up till i can't see my song, will u break down these walls and pull me through. cos its a long long journey till i feel i am worth the prize. you paid the price for me on calvary beneath the stormy skies. when satan marks and when friends turn to foes. when everything is out to make me lose control. cos its a long long journey. till i find my way home.... to you....

this song quite displays what i'm feeling now. its a weird feeling. its called journey bny corrinne may if you're interested. its a bad song to listen to when you're feeling sad because it tells u what you're feeling which kind of makes things worse. i was hoping and wishing that i'd get into the student committee although i know i didn't go for one of the days. hmmm. i was bracing myself for disappointment anyway and well i didn't get in because i didn't turn up for one of the workshops. i was hoping that i'd get in with my honesty and truthfulness though. but no. i still didn't get in . haiyah . maybe its all God's will. its all part of His mighty plan for me. i hope so. what if my getting in is actually His will. and i'm not fulfilling it. sighs. kinda saddening. i don't know if i'm feeling sad , whether i really wanted to get in or not. i know in sec. school i wanted it quite badly. but now.... my mind was full of thoughts about whether or not i would enjoy it, whether i'd be able to work well with others. i'm changing. i'm not really being me ?? what happened to my courage and bravery ?? to dare to do things without thinking about the what-ifs.

there are a thousand reasons why i should give up.. but i'm stubborn in the things i believe. cos the river runs and the river hides. out to the ocean and under the sky. i promise you the answer will come. hold on to patience just wait for the sign. everything in its time.everything in its time.

how come all the songs i'm listening to now have such meaning. that was everything in its time by corrinne may again. heh

this is the first time i'm having a friend that i'm quite close to get attached and i know about it. hahas. its a weird feeling. maybe thats what it is. maybe cos i've been in a girls' school all my life and i never knew if my close friends got bf's or anything. maybe we all didn't like guys lar hahas. i have a bad feeling about it though. somehow.. maybe its the person. hmmm maybe this time there'll be the case where the person drifts away from us. aiyah. shouldn't joke about this sort of stuff but then it'll be quite interesting cos i really never had a friend whom i knew was attached lolx. something like that anyway

don't know why. i've been quite down lately. sucky feeling i tell u . oh well.. i'm now thinking about what i wanna do in uni. my initial plan was dentistry, orthodontists earn so much money ! haha or maybe physio. or something like occupational therapy. don't know what sort of degree that is though.. hahas

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