YWednesday, May 03, 2006
i hear knocks on the door, someone wanting to get in . but heck, he can wait outside lolx. hmmm now i can't think of what to type. after the holidays, my brain has been lazing, waiting to be shaken awake again i hope. grrr. this is hard. how come i have friends who can writ e so beautifully, using analogies and all sorts of flowery language. its hard to type like them. i've been in this place for over an hour. but oh well. i'm going home for dinner soon. thought for the day: what would u do if you found out that you were going to lose your eyesight in a week?? yeah! and i'm consoled because i'm coming back again in june. whee i'm thinking of joining some club or something. probably dance. they're doing swing this term heh . sounds cool
aiyah . just now the stupid MAC compputer in the comp lab amazingly ate my blog post and i couldn't find where to open it again. blame it on my IT idiotic-ness.
how come now my brain can't think of what i wanted to type just now ? ah . yes. i think life these days is getting complicated to understand what you are trying to say. especially in draggy soppy korean drama serials that make you cry at the end regardless of age or race or sex. hahas. and actually i find it funny too. because when i talk to people, do i really say what i mean. do people actually understand what i'm trying to say and do they know when i am joking. has my humour flown away out of the aeroplane window on my way back to melbourne. how come i don't laugh as much as i used to. i don't find as many things funny. i don't laugh for no reason, or for the reason that i JUST WANT TO LAUGH often enough. i don't think enough. sometimes i don't know why i do the things i do and what i want to achive by doing them. a lot of the things are pointless. redundant things. and a lot of times i feel things that i don't think i should feel. things that are so trivial, yet i get caught up in it. maybe my time's not fully utilised enough. hmmm. my friend said :"if you look down on yourself then u give me the right to look down on you". i used to be a cheerful person with little worries but now... small things can get me down. make me upset and stuff. and i don't think its healthy. i'm doing my best though. and after this ranting i think these bad emotions will go away. *POOF like dust.
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