YFriday, June 02, 2006
hey heys. i've been kind of down the past few days and i guess i just needed some quiet time with myself ? or with a few people. hostel life has been pretty hectic. i mean do we actually spend more time studying to going to each other;s rooms and hanging out. lolx. and and and .. i think i spend much more time with these albert house people rather than my own family hahas.
i don't know why there can be so many people around me, yet i feel like i don't realy fit in. maybe i've always felt like it. but in singapore its not the same because i still have tita and jiejie and daddy and mummy. but then .. its all part of what we have to get used to . i never thought i'd get homesick cos i'd be having too much fun but now i know that these two things can actually co-exist at the same time.
i think it was wednesday that i started feeling so terrible. that girls can be so difficult to understand. i'm a girl and i don't understand my own species. and i don't understand guys. so what do i understand ?? NOTHING ?? that sucks. i'm not even good at figuring out what other girls like to buy or look at. maybe i just have such weird taste that i'm too disconnected from others.
oh .. i went to watch TAKE THE LEAD.. syafiq and i went and we did stupid things.
stupid thing no.1 : we paid for the ticket when no one even checked. we could have gone in for FREE
stupid thing no.2 :we almost finished the GIANT bucket of popcorn which was salted and we don't even like salted
stupid thing no.3 : we finished a whole LARGE cup of coke. and the both of us don't even like coke man.
hahas cool eh . lolx. well was feeling really OFF. and not myself and i guess the movie really made me feel ALOT better cos the cinema is dark.. and yeah .
well. i don't know. was just really great to eat the whole bucket of popcorn non stop for two hours. just had this craving. like how i miss watching movies back home and eating popcorn. hahas.
oh well. i think God sent me angels from all over. situated in different corners. like wednesday or tuesday or whichever day, i was feeling super crappy, i received a message from shahir on thursday morning. when i was just thinking of how nice it would be to hear his silly jokes and laughter. and shtoopid and shuddup. hahas. and then dejavue man. he really messaged me. hmmm. some friends just should never be lost.
ok going upstairs to watch american pie. shall not make them wait very long this time, i hope they've started watching without me or i'll feel really bad. yeesh
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