Beautiful Disaster.

i'm removing nail polish !!
muah haha. didn't go for HOI lecture today

hmmm suddenly i'm really excited for prom which is taking place on friday
yeah i thought i would be really bored. but then yesterday i was talking to tiana and then the more we talked the more high we got. and then the after party. hurr hurr
exciting !!
they better not check id. X(

oh well..
sudenly so exciting
aaah !!
gonna do my hair and make up with lilian. then i got my handbag and shoes and dress everything already
yikes i spent super a lot of money man
sheesh i feel really bad
hmmm ... i think everyone is going to look realy good. - pretty and handsome !
everyone transforming into butterflies !!
whee
haha
although i don't have a date. i guess it will just be very very fun anyway
yeah !!
i may meet another solo guy there ?? lolx

yet after the prom .. its gonna be exams soon sheesh
i don't feel prepared for it at all .. sighs
but i must do well !!!
aaah if not my dentist future is gone. and although i don't really know if i wanna be a dentist i guess we all never really know right

shoE was here with you at 2:26 PM .

i always find it hard to make decisions.
but now with janica's help.. i have chosen heh heh

i now can't decide which is my favourite song.
one more moment or maneater

grrr.. both nice in their own ways

i think i need to remember this song all the time.. so that i'll treasure all the things and people around me.
X)

shoE was here with you at 11:56 PM .

Don't take too long to say

I love you to the ones you love

Cause time has a habit of slipping away

And out on the clear blue sky

When lightning strikes on a sunny day

Just take me in and keep me from the rain

And the words that seem so hard to say

Come out when you've gone away

Just stay a little while and hear me say

That I want you here tonight

And I need you by my side

For just one more moment

For just one more moment with you

Turn away to say goodbye

With each and every word that passes by

Like a distant memory

And time keeps slipping away

And time will turn to grey

And time will be the one who holds you down

And the words that seem so hard to say

Come out when you've gone away

Just stay a little while and hear me say

That I want you here tonight

And I need you by my side

For just one more moment

For just one more moment

That I want you here tonight

And I need you by my side

For just one more moment

For just one more moment with you

Sometimes time will treat you bad

Before you even know what's wrong

And in the end it hits you hard

Please tell me you'll be strong

Sometimes time will treat you bad

Before you even know what's wrong

And in the end it hits you hard

Please tell me you'll be strong

cheers to ronin !!
they're the glory of singapore
this song rocks its so so so nice
i realise these days i hardly blog about things. i put only nice songs..

shoE was here with you at 9:55 PM .

Take it back, take it back...

Verse 1-
Everybody look at me, me
I walk in the door you start screaming
Come on everybody whatchu here for?
Move your body around like a nympho
Everybody get your necks to crack around
All you crazy people come on jump around
I want to see you all on your knees
you either want to be with me, or be me

Chorus-
Maneater, make you work hard
Make you spend hard
Make you want all, of her love
She's a maneater
make you buy cars
make you cut cords
make you fall, fall in love
Maneater, make you work hard
Make you spend hard
Make you want all, all of her love
She's a maneater
make you buy cars
make you cut cords
Wish you never ever met her at all

Verse 2-
And when she walks she walks with passion
when she talks, she talks like she can handle it
when she asks for something she means it
even if you never ever ever seen it
everybody get your necks to crack around
all you crazy people come and jump around
you doing anything to keep her by your side
because, she said she love you, love you long time

Chorus-
Maneater, make you work hard
Make you spend hard
Make you want all, of her love
She's a maneater
make you buy cars
make you cut cords
make you fall, fall in love
Maneater, make you work hard
Make you spend hard
Make you want all, all of her love
She's a maneater
make you buy cars
make you cut cords
Wish you never ever met her at all

Chorus-
Maneater, make you work hard
Make you spend hard
Make you want all, of her love
She's a maneater
make you buy cars
make you cut cords
make you fall, fall in love
Maneater, make you work hard
Make you spend hard
Make you want all, all of her love
She's a maneater
make you buy cars
make you cut cords
Wish you never ever met her at all

Outro-
never ever met her at all
you wish you never ever met her at all
you wish you never ever met her at all
you wish you never ever met her at all
you wish you never ever met her at all
you wish you never ever met her at all

hahas i got this song stuck in my head and now i can't get it off my mind. esp the part where it says
:you doing anything to keep her by your side
because, she said she love you, love you long time

so cool lar this song. i hope they play it at the afterparty on friday lolx
i wish i was this kind of girl. a maneater. walk into a room and everyone looks at me
the kind that has lots of influence and power.
yupps
oh well

aiyaii i've spent so much money for prom. i paid 165 for a pair of nice shoes. whether they match or not i MUST wear them haha
i feel so guilty for spending so much sighs X(

be a cool girl. one that gives guys lasting attraction

shoE was here with you at 10:09 PM .

life is simple !
you make a choice && don't ever look back

Please tell me what is takin' place,
'Cause I can't seem to find a trace,
Guess it must have got erased somehow,
Probably 'cause I always forget,
Everytime someone tells me their name,
It's always gotta be the same.
(In my World)
Never wore a cover-up,
Always beat the boys up,
Grew up in a five thousand population town,
Made my money by cutting grass,
Got fired by a fried chicken ass!
All in a small town, Napanee.

You know I always stay up without sleepin',
And think to myself,
Where do I belong forever,
In whose arms, the time and place?

Can't help it if I space in a daze,
My eyes tune out the other way,
I may switch off and go in a daydream,
In this head my thoughts are deep,
Sometimes I can't even speak,
Would someone be and not pretend?
I'm off again in my World

I never spend less than an hour,
Washin' my hair in the shower,
It always takes five hours to make it straight,
So I'll braid it in a zillion braids,
Though it may take all friggin' day,
There's nothin' else better to do anyway.

When you're all alone in the lands of forever,
Lay under the milky way,
On and on it's getting too late out,
I'm not in love this time this night.

Can't help it if I space in a daze,
My eyes tune out the other way,
I may switch off and go in a daydream,
In this head my thoughts are deep,
Sometimes I can't even speak,
Will someone be and not pretend?
I'm off again in my World

(la la la la)

Take some time,
Mellow out,
Party up,
But don't fall down,
Don't get caught,
Sneak out of the house.

Can't help it if I space in a daze,
My eyes tune out the other way,
I may switch off and go in a daydream,
In this head my thoughts are deep,
Sometimes I can't even speak,
Will someone be and not pretend?
I'm off again in my World

Can't help it if I space in a daze,
My eyes tune out the other way,
I may switch off and go in a daydream,
In this head my thoughts are deep,
Sometimes I can't even speak,
Will someone be and not pretend?
I'm off again in my world
(repeat)

shoE was here with you at 2:02 PM .

today we studied at baillieu until three am again. yesterday i cam back at 330am and plopped on my bed. immediately knock out i tell you supposed to watch the elvis show but i was too tired. now we're watching the perfect man.
whee
the cool cool good looking guy was studying there too.. i hope he goes there more often .. like everyday .. next week heh
now i dunno whether wanna go state library and see cute aussie or baillieu,,
notice BAILLIEU is spelt B.A.I.L.L.I.E.U
whee
qi has prac tomorrow at 930. i'm sure she can't wake up one.. aiyaii
that girl ah ..
oh well.. shall blog about qi and lappong's birthday tmr..
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY to darling qi and lappong !!!!
heh

shoE was here with you at 2:06 AM .

i just watched summer holiday by cliff richard and its such a cute movie.
whee i'm also trying to finish watching perfect blue. this really old anime. i watched two parts of it on tuesday. quite scary

qi is sleeping in my room now
and its 440 am. i have lit tute tmr

sometimes i don't know what i'm feeling
today in lit i found out where the green eyed monster expression came from.. it was from shakespeare. he's really really good .
woah

anyway yah .. sometimes i get grouchy and just keep quiet. haiyaii
its a bad thing to do i think , i seem to get tired easily. and i become lazy to talk. thats terrible too.
i seem like a nice person most of the time but i think when people see my grouchy bad mood think too much side... they'll have different thoughts about me

well well.. today many thoughts came to visit me again .and i'm brushing them aside again. maybe i'll forget how to even think about things since i always try to ignore things.. i know talking it out loud makes you feel better and writing makes you feel better but what if you don't even know what you're feeling. sighs

i don't know what i'm doing yet again. sighs
got to study hard from now on. less than a month to study EVERYTHING
the sky is as grey as if it just rained
but the sky over my head is the only cloudless blue around
because i have you in my life.
Lord you are my sunshine, my strength, my hope and courage

shoE was here with you at 2:45 AM .

money money money
give me money.
divide by how many people there are
give me more money
spend the money
spend more money

give me some space
need some air.
need to rest
do what you want to do

lick your lips
give someone a kiss
steal a hug

stress out
then run away from all your cares

i don't know what i'm typing actually
my brain isn't functioning

shoE was here with you at 7:52 PM .

Artist: Natalie
Song: Love You So

Lyrics :

Ooh
Ooh, ooh
Ooh, ooh

From the minute that you got my attention
I was taken and I have to mention
I was trying to not let it show
But I knew I wasn't gonna let you go
From the way that you came right to me
Looking all hot with the style that threw me
No one would've ever known it
You would be the one who take this heart and hold it

You got that extraordinary way
Got to be next to ya every single day
You do something that I just can't explain
Wanna take the chance and tell you you're the one for me

Ooh, I love you so
Just look in my eyes, they'll tell you where this could go
Yeah
Do you know it
Ooh, I love you so
Look in these eyes, they'll tell you where this could go
I just want you to know

You can san say anything you want to
No stress 'cause I understand you
We got a vibe you can't define
Want everyone know that boy is mine
We won't fight and stop and stare at the way you hold me
You take me there at times
I feel I lose control
Forget everyone but the hand I'm holding

You got that extraordinary way
Got to be next to ya every single day
You do something that I just can't explain
Wanna take the chance and tell you you're the one for me

Ooh, I love you so
Just look in my eyes, they'll tell you where this could go
Yeah
Can you feel it
Ooh, I love you so
Look in these eyes, they'll tell you where this could go
I just want you to know

Please know this
I'll always be right here
And you don't have to look
Nowhere else babe
Don't think for a minute
This love will change
Oh you should know that

Ooh, I love you so
Just look in my eyes, they'll tell you where this could go
Yeah
Can you feel it
Ooh, I love you so
Look in these eyes, they'll tell you where this could go
I just want you to know

Ooh, I love you so
Just look in my eyes, they'll tell you where this could go
Yeah
Can you feel it
Ooh, I love you so
Look in these eyes, they'll tell you where this could go
I just want you to know

this song is nice.. i don't know if its old already but yah oh well
haven't finished blogging about thhe aquarium and now its time to blog about qi and lappong's birthday
we got them this cute tiara things that say happy birthday in pink for qi and blue for lappong
heehee
happy birthday qiqi and lappong louis james
whee
this morning woke up early to go paste these posters the whole way to school that say happy birthday and have their face there.

i'm watching perfect blue now in swanston. some really old anime.
whee don't know what to blog about. too much stuff i wanna say but lazy to type it out.
like how i was imagining to meet the perfect boyfriend. maybe i should go into story writing. lolx

teo is here- half asleep
mkust give her brain time to wake up
while i'm so sleepy
dying soon

shoE was here with you at 6:00 PM .

wah her backspce got prob one
i fodon't wanna ytype already

shoE was here with you at 8:55 PM .

haha do i look like the captain something from pirates of the carribean2

doesn't she look like the penguin ?? so cute !

do i really look like dory ??

this is where all the evil began. we started taking photos in the souvenier shop haha

our first proper photo of the day at the relaxing place

teo''s fave photo of herself. she thinks she climbed mount everest but actually only less than one metre high
it started off very diao.. with the touch pool and some mangrove thing. then we decided to go and eat. ate A BOWL OF WEDGES. with sour cream and ketchup lolx
so greedy right
then we wen down and saw the actual nice part. it was veryy small. but very amazing. the sharks seemed so big. and the stingrays were so so so cute they had those fake faces. haha
they became my friends and teo's friends were the sharks. lolx
she was SO amazed and fascinated by everything. suddenly take so many photos. in all we took 264 photos an videos in total. a lot of nonsense videos of all the fishies. only 1 truly funny video about teo and the sting rAY she wanted to take photo with. but when she looked at it. it had a fish in its mouth haha.
i know the phots aren't exactly in order. heh

shoE was here with you at 8:27 PM .

these past two days i've been thinking.
i've been trying to figure it out
i've been trying to find logic and reasoning
i've been silly

haha
i think there are many things in life that we hardly think about. i'm out of MB cos i was looking at prada shoes. and eeks. not very nice lar although SOME of them were pretty.
anyway .. today i slept through lit lecture. ok half of it. wong qi and me were sleeping right in front of mike hahas
then we had HOI. didn't listen anything as usual. and haha was laughing at andrew's DRY HAIR. i wanna cut for u !!! grrr....
anyway we were talking about beng's "crush". heh and how he is a flirt only invite girls to his birthday partay ! but so sad cos he doesn't seem to have friends now.
heh beng beng.. next week still have chance !! THE BLUE SEATS !!!
waah haha
this andrew ah .. go talk about someone.. then ah i kept thinking about what he said. make me don't wanna eat chicken lolx

(oops i'm abandoning janice)-we're in the state library and she's studying upstairs
i accidentally took this old man's place. heh i felt so bad seriously

anyway .. yah lar.. this andrew. i wonder what he would say about me if i'm not his friend man. anyway i guess everyone talks about everyone else right just that they probably don't tell it in your face.
yeah.. suddenly i'm in such a mood for blogging. i don't know why ..
i realised there a lot of asians in the state library although you can't borrow books unless u have an australian citizenship

oh well.. yes on to what i realised
*i realised it cos i saw it in a friend and yeah i think i have it too
-realised how when u want something you can never get it but when u don't have something anymore u want it instead
cool yeah . i guess we are all selfish people. we always want the things people have. and well if u can't get it then no one else can
i always thought i was a selfless person and i guess i am more or less one. but when it comes to my own happiness i think i am a little selfish and its hard to change i think.. but oh well
thats life right you're always trying to change to become better whether its easy or not..
yupp
i don't even know how we got such mindsets
*red alert red alert*
i see a cute guy in the library with an ear hole lolx.. hurr hurr

anyway today .. qi met library shuai ge. not really met but he came and said hi. and i was thinking to myself i should be feeling excited right. but somehow i wasn't. i don't know why .. so weird.
maybe i'm just not that kind of fanatical person
i've never gone crazy over a superstar. the closest was being a bit interested in a senior

*red alert red alert
cute STATE library guy has a cute friend with a pretty girl friend. haha with very interesting hair and really pretty eyes. i don't even know if i'm more excited by the girl.
haha
ok very random today i know. i guess my blog is just for nonsensical typings. like things i don't even know if i understand. saying things i don't know if i really feel. its just another outlet to express the things i'm feeling. things so small that you don't really feel necessary to tell people. but yet big enough to be able to write a long entry about. hmmm HIGH SCHOOL GUYS ARE CUTE !!
shoosh
yeah- i need something exciting in my life right now.. someone new, fun and exciting !!
i'm turning into a drag.. a boring rag doll..

maybe i can turn into cinderella if i own a pretty pair of shoes.. eg:

shoE was here with you at 5:27 PM .

today we had this HOi debate

the topic :
no matter what Feminists say, women will always be constrained by their biology

affirmative views :
-men and women are made different
-we have different roles in society
-women give birth- thus arising issues like maternity leave
- having to leave their work

even if more females go to university and many women have higher paying jobs than men .. most of them will still ultimately end up as housewives.

opposition views:
-it is not their biology that constrains them but the view of society on what women should be
-its unfair to say that women cannot do the same things as men just because they have to give birth to children. they can choose not to anyway
-there are women working in hospitals and law firms
-ally mcbeal is a successful lawyer .. (haha)

women are ultimately not constrained by biology but by what society has defined them as. if the society didn't see them mainly as mothers it would be a different story

questions from the floor:
-why is it that most inventions are invented by men ??
-ultimately if women are constrained by society.. their biology must be the one that caused society to classify them this way. cos you have to think about way before the Enlightenment... like the STONE AGES ???

things to ponder about:
-what would happen if women are really not constrained and then men and women are totally equal ??
-men can become mothers ??
-men have constraints too in comparison to women right?? so ultimately shouldn't we all still be equal ??

what i think ....
i really don't know.. maybe diferent women want different things. so it doesn't really matter to them if they don't have the same rights.
as long as we are all able to have the same rights and be able to have the same opportunities .. then i guess everything is ok right.

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without your love i'm nothing but a beggar
without your love a dog without a bone

angel- aerosmith
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i feel so blessed you know.. that although i think alot of my life is quite screwed up. and i tend to remember the bad parts of events. but last night my wonderful friend neo made me realise that i'm lucky in so many other ways and although shitty stuff happen to me.... they don't really matter so much . i'm lucky and i'm loved and i'm happy and thats all that matters
i'm just so grateful that i have so many wonderful people around me.
people who care and people who i can talk to.
thanks everyone.. i love u all . and in many ways i'll never be able to thank everyone enough. just wanna say thanks anyway X)

shoE was here with you at 3:16 PM .

i'm the dj. THe DEcca Tree Boy. hahas
so nonsense.
maybe i can be a song writer..
like all those lyrical kind of songs..
songs people can relate to and can love ..
wwhee

lim's blog is currently being suspected as a spam blog.
what does it mean ??
and lim is suffering from not being able to blog..
she wants to make a new one.. which will be much uglier.

sheesh i skipped lit today. i didn't wanna wake up. boo

teo just sneezed and she sounds like some weird chipmunk !!
hahas..

shoE was here with you at 3:56 PM .

waahhaha.. i'm in the swanston comp lab now waiting for ninghui to come. and i heard people checking their term3 results. i thought they would only be available on wednesday. but well... i guess they're out now..

hmmm .. overall quite pleased with my results but english is seriously pulling me down.. sheesh... wonder whre we're going for dinner. yummy yummy

shoE was here with you at 3:41 PM .

hurr hurr. i feel so blessed that i have friends who remind me that i am loved. sometimes i wonder whether people have forgotten me. u know out of sight out of mind. but there are such wonderful people like cheryl around. yay X)
thanks for your email babe. and sophia !! i'll send u your letter soon !!
whee.
thanks everyone. praise God that there is nothing that HE cannot do.

went shopping for a prom dress with qiqi again .. and she came home empty handed while i bought stuff again .. grrr

don't i look pregnant here

shoE was here with you at 7:53 PM .