Beautiful Disaster.

shoot. this should have been posted yesterday. but oh well happy belated birthday to me !!

i'm glad a lot of people back home haven't forgotten about me. i love you all darlings !!
whee i'm in the midst of exams now. so i really didn't expect any celebration of any sorts. but my birthday happens to fall on a sunday. so yeah it was really unexpected.
i only had 4hours of sleep for my chem exam on saturday. so i came home and collapsed to sleep at about 10pm after going to some worship thing with peh. hurr hurr. then qi comes barging into my room at midnight and takes ugly photos of me sleeping. eww she better not have posted them on her blog. omg

steps to bake a happy birthday to shyanne cake:
step1: unsuccessfully blindfold the birthday girl in her room
step2: bring her to Carlton Gardens
step3: make her sit on the floor

and then .. KABOOM !!

add water bombs, flour and eggs in the cold...

and TADAH !!! YOU GET THE BEST AND DIRTIEST BIRTHDAY CELEBRATION EVER

whoo hoo. we all got super dirty lar. had flour all over me. and i spent more than an hour bathing. australia's currently in drought but we all happily used up so much water getting everything out of our hair hahas

they tried to trick me that they only brought the cake and had to go back to study but then.. yeah it ended being one of my best birthdays ever.
thanks everyone !!
love u all lots and lots

esp thanks to teo and neo.. and who ever else came up with the idea of the eggs, flour and water
*lucky there was no oil*
to ah beng for not throwing stones at me
to qi for waking me up and all her pretty presents
to teo for stoops and the nice green cap
to wong for also making me wake up
to poh for unsuccefully carrying me out of albert house
to sikai for taking photos which i haven't got yet
to roomie for not letting the guys poke me !!
to limmie and the others for cleaning the floor up
to jinsern for letting them mess up his toilet to prepare the "ammunition"
to syafiq, joel, teo, lim, neo, andrew for spending the whole afternoon preparing the things
to everyone else:: thanks so much.

aiyaii . i was blogging halfway that day and then i decided to do the right things at the right time and go study. but well yes my exam is tmr and here i am blogging again.

anyway .. here's to continue about my birthday
finally after i took two hours to clean up all the flour. teo and i went to eat souvlaki !! yumm... i'm so going to miss eating souvlaki when i go back.. aaah

yummy !!

thats me and teo with stoops haha

thats leslie poh neo and pong watching the soccer game intently. what my life would be without these guys

exciting black and white photos

this is qi's pretty present for me X)

on sunday. i went out with teo and tan to yoyogi for lunch. we ordered damn a lot. and we got these cute little pooh handphone keychains. quite childish but super super adorable

ok yeah . i need to continue with maths2 !!
if not.. i will just DIE tonight.
so i shall continue blogging tmr after my paper

oh man . still haven't finish blogging.

anyway as a continuation
today i found out our delicious dinner at the docklands was to celebrate my birthday
no wonder so random one. joel suddenly asked me qi and syafiq for dinner.

whee.. we had loads of fun
was the first time i had dinner at a fancy restaurant with my friends. like at the sea side kinda place. super nice
syafiq had kangaroo meat

qi's spaghetti marinara

joel's duck risotto

my grilled salmon

all the food was super yummy. and we had this nice view of the port... err yah kinda. i dunnno what its called.

we took lots of photos and did a lot of crazy things. like drink wine. qi and i had white and syafiq and joel had red. oh man i was quite high. and the restaurant had very nice toilets. very cool i should say. yupp. and then we went to sit at the water and we made a wish and threw 5cents into the water. haha
and then while walking we took off our shoes. which was very interesting.

whee then we trammed home and got cool tram tickets. they were pink ! heehee and then walked home in my QUITE killer heels. grrr
and then they gave me this super nice present !!
two paul frank shirts. they seem a bit small though. but .. i still love them !!!

whee.. *hugs to syafiq joel and wenqi. i gave them kisses with the palm of my hand. hah and qi said she wanted to sue me fore raping her. lolx

i had a great time man
thanks for the wonderful time !!

i promise joel that next year we will stay in touch. i solemnly consent to letting him come to cs2 apartment 824 and for me to go over to his nice new big apartment at southbank to just chill out.. study or something. whee i will allow myself to eat joel's cooking no matter how terrible.. haha and i shall cook for him too
la dee dasss

i'm gonna miss everyone !!!
its my last week in albert house X(

ok i shall put some photos of us at the orange blue and green lights

i seriously love these people !!

shoE was here with you at 9:30 PM .

married or SINGLE ??

If you're not married yet, share this with a friend. If you are married,

share it with your spouse or other married couples and reflect on it.

An African proverb states, "Before you get married, keep both eyes open,

and after you marry, close one eye." Before you get involved and make a

commitment to someone, don't let lust, desperation, immaturity, ignorance,

pressure from others or a low self-esteem, make you blind to warning

signs. Keep your eyes open, and don't fool yourself that you can change

someone or that what you see as faults aren't really important.

Once you decide to commit to someone, over time his or her flaws,

vulnerabilities, pet peeves, and differences will become more obvious. If

you love your mate and want the relationship to grow and evolve, you've

got to learn to close one eye and not let every little thing bother you.

You and your mate have many different expectations, emotional needs,

values, dreams, weaknesses, and strengths. You are two unique individual

children of God who have decided to share a life together.

Neither of you are perfect, but are you perfect for each other? Do you

bring out the best in each other? Do you compliment and compromise with

each other, or do you compete, compare, and control? What do you bring to

the relationship? Do you bring past relationships, past hurt, past

mistrust, past pain? You can't take someone to the altar to alter him or

her.

You can't make someone love you or make someone stay. If you develop

self-esteem, spiritual discernment, and "a life", you won't find yourself

making someone else responsible for your happiness or responsible for your

pain. Manipulation, control, jealousy, neediness, and selfishness are not

the ingredients of a thriving, healthy, loving and lasting relationship!

Seeking status, sex, wealth, and security are the wrong reasons to be in a

relationship. What keeps a relationship strong? Communication, intimacy,

trust, a sense of humor, sharing household tasks, some getaway time

without business or children and daily exchanges (a meal, shared activity,

a hug, a call, a touch, a note). Leave a nice message on the voicemail or

send a nice email. Sharing common goals and interests.

Growth is important. Grow together, not away from each other, giving each

other space to grow without feeling insecure. Allow your mate to have

outside interest. You can't always be together. Give each other a sense of

belonging and assurances of commitment. Don't try to control one another.

Learn each other's family situation. Respect his or her parents

regardless. Don't put pressure on each other for material goods. Remember

for richer or for poorer. If these qualities are missing, the relationship

will erode as resentment, withdrawal, abuse, neglect, dishonesty, and pain

replace the passion.

The difference between 'United' and 'Untied' is where you put the i.

shoE was here with you at 6:40 PM .

lit paper is over !! only 5 more to go !! ah haha
i just used 293 MB in ONE DAY !!! omg i'm really really v pro haha

today during the lit paper. the lights suddenly went off !!!

ah haha. scared u eh. no lar. only one section of the exam hall.. hahas. me and lim's row was just beside the area that had a "blackout" and after when they turned on the lights again. i felt it was somewhat dimmer. i thought it was only me. but anyway limmie felt it too lolx
so yeah .. thats the excitement i get out of the exams.

shoE was here with you at 9:57 AM .

welcome !!

let me introduce you to the world's first magazine on a bottle. hahas
so cool right. although i doubt they're going to get new ones every month lolx
but it is quite interesting. cos here in melbourne we must always drink water to keep ourselves hydrated if not lips will start to crack and skin get scaly.. yuppso you'll always carry a water bottle around. quite interesting right. so when you're bored you can read through it. it has jenniffer aniston on the cover some more.. whoo

my pretty green nails..

the little frog !!

i love limmie !!

i cAN flieee

happy birthday roomie !!!

like your new slippers ??

shoE was here with you at 5:17 PM .

aaah !! exams are starting you know wwhen ..... TOMORROW..

*plays the jaws music...*

haha. so scary and i haven't been online for such a LOOong time. sighs but its also a good thing cos i'm not able to go friendster and all and chat till dunno what time. yupp

so i'm not planning to enable my account till a few days more lar.. if not .. sure chat and chat. haha

anyway i miss you people !!
and i'm coming home soon !! whoo

shoE was here with you at 9:31 AM .

ever experienced a tight knot ??
you feel so stuck and if u pull harder you get even more tangled but yet its so hard to untangle the knot

haha
sometimes i feel very confused. not knowing whether to turn left or right
sometimes its so hard to make decisions

we wonder who we are
and we ponder who we've become
who our hearts have slumbered
who our feet have stumbled

i don't know what i want anymore don't know what i like or what i don't
i get scared i don't speak up i feel bad i try to help

in othello, the good in Emilia and Desdemmona is exploited by Iago to bring about the downfall of Othello

sometimes no matter how good you try to be or however perfect you are you still undergo internal conflict between you and you.

i think i'd feel even more lost without you by my side always helping me to remain calm in the worst situations. the toughest choices. no matter how bad i feel for doing things i am reminded of Your great love. Your amazing grace and i know i don't deserve any of it but you pour out your love on me anyway. well Lord i'd be so lost without you especially being here alone and all.

loneliness coupled with an inadequacy of vocabulary to explain how i'm feeling.
if i had to tell anyone, it would come out as a blabble of words not making any sense
even i don't understand myself how can anyone understand me.
i don't know why i find it so hard. its simple right

life is simple. keep it simple

you make a choice and don't look back

you make a choice and don't look back

it would be great if choices weren't so hard to make

hmm i'm afraid of what the future will bring. i'm afraid of what my year will turn out like. i don't want to be stuck and yet i wanna have something holding me down so i don't fly away. or at least so i don't drift

i wanna have a substantial existence

send someone to love
i need to rest in arms
keep me safe from harm in the pouring rain
give me endless summer
Lord i feel the cold
feel i'm getting old before my time

i wanna know what i'm put on Earth for. should i grow trees. should i be a actress. hahas
i thought the confusion about yourself and the identity crisis is supposed to happen sometime ago. maybe i'm only STARTING to mature now. its been some time eh. i'm still a little kid. hmm its even worse when you don't know how to express how you feel or when you don't even know what is the problem.

i tend to think too much all the time. especially when i'm stressed and my brain starts to spin.

you are all i need to get me through
you're like a falling star i fell for you

i feel like bad weather

i shouldn't have changed to short pants and a thin jacket. grr i feel so stupid

i feel i am feeling a lot of things right now.
and now after saying how i feel. i feel much better
i think no one can really help. i just need to continue discovering myself. need to continue exploring my feelings and all.

shoE was here with you at 3:05 PM .

yesterday.. was the much awaited trinity ball
we prepared so much for it. me and qiqi doing face mask and removing white heads lolx
wow everyone was so dressed up with hair done and make up and pretty dresses and cool shoes and nice handbags. whoo !!
i went with lilian to do the hair and make up and the two of us sat in this 13 seater cab. lolx
sorry no photos for this one cos i didn't bring my cam.
well..
we all sat in a limo !! driving around the city before going to thge grand hyatt.

tadah thats janice tan and i with the limo- she's so pretty right !! her hair so nice some more.. !!

ok i shall attempt to put up a photo of everyone i took photos with .

this is ah beng !! so tall and skinny. she's wearing like no heel heels some more. and she's still taller than me. grrr. oren chantek.. lolx

this is shaleen !! she's always pretty so tonight is no different !

this is louis/lap pong. whoo he won a prize for being the most hollywood lookalike. lolx i think its inspector gadget or inspector something.. yes he'll dig out any secrets you have. so don't hide them from him haha

this is sikai !! whoo looks like some businessman eh .

me and teo. this is her usual eye size although it looks a bit bigger with her fish net specs. so different from her usual fishermanpants and don't know what t-shirts right

limmie partner !! good thing the nonsense she drew on my hand the previous day came out. she ah .. wear long skirt still wanna zhao geng. haha

this is neo. he won the most productive hair prize. he was SO SO SO happy i tell you. lolx

me and lilian. imagine we only paid 7dollars for our hair. we couldn't even believe it man . hahas her fur is so taitai lar. whoo !! don't we look BEAutiful.

janice peh !! wheeadam khoo friend !! when we go back can go look for interesting courses together

this is me and aivyn. if only theres a full body shot. her dress is REALLY very nice. has this cool front i can't describe.

buddy number ONE !! he's aivyn's bf so don't bother looking at him. this is albert but he doesn't stay in albert house

this is jane my pretty eap friend ! she has a really good voice. she sang in the spring and autumn concert and ttv. she plays guitar too. wow what a babe

tze ming !! look at that V-neck man. so hunky . ooh

yong rong and roomie !! whooo look so pretty and shiny !!

roomie cheryl !! you rock !! her hair looks so cute right. aiyaii should show the shoes also. very very nice !!!

me and emily !! her nice yellow dress. the prettiest yellow dress at the prom. whoo !! so bright like sunflower one

me and zhiyuan. he's a very very good tennis player !! and very hardworking boy.. go to baillieu to study then late for class the next day. tsk tsk

wirawan !! drama friend. i'll always remember the funny-ness of him in our drama performance. the last part where they have to turn around and round.. lolx

zhi min !! chemprac friend. aiyah in the end we didn't get to take photo during the last practical.. X(

diana.. my sajc friend

mike-y !! i'm taller than you ! haha

mark the smart smart guy in lit class

cherie my beautiful friend in pants

eric in his suit. i tried it on before but i think he looks better in it.

egg !! he's all well prepared for NS.. standing so straight and all

kim my chem and maths friend. every monday we complain that we have the 2 most impt tutes on the first day of the week.. sighs.

my darling ninghui !! was one of the few days she didn't suan me but said i looked pretty hahas. i love her dress man

giulia !! my golfing friend. meet up in the hols ok. does she look like my twin ?? grrr.. no right

melissa the saviour of the night. sorry i puked all over you darling. love you

jinsern ! don't sit with us still wanna take photo huh ! hahas.

handsome steven. don't let your gf see this photo ah . later she wanna box me

charis looks so pretty right. stupid camera didn't have flash . *ah bish

janice tan, qi and me with tamar and her daughter

qi and i with chris our dancing class friend

ninghui me and emily

shayfern !! libing !!! are you looking at this now. we're so pretty. jealous not ??

hazel.. looking so mysterious eh . one eye covered

pretty pretty mabel !! great job in organising the prom !! the decorations and food were fantastic although only 3 courses but the salmon was super good. and the mashed potatoes with chicken and the mango creme brule

charisse. the back of her dress was so much more exciting.

mushiera ! we look pretty with the flowers in our hair

annie. napoleon make up rocks. our make up matches our dress perfectly X)

leslie !! he says i looked really pretty whoo . and he looked good too.

me and neo. he's hot and so am i

jacqueline !! so sad she's not taking HOI advanced. then can crap together in class.

peilian !!

me and kevin ! my smart smart chemistry friend

ailin looks so nice in her plain black dress

abraham the exciting guitar player

andrew my drama friend !! term 4's drama exam will be a great one

gavin another guitar man

the closest photo of me and tiana i think

oh there is one of me and tiana

me and wong. when she dresses up look how pretty she is man . i'm jealous

me and yichian. don't have a full shot of us. her pretty red dress

syafiq !! he's setting the trend man . the turtle neck instead of a tie.

me and pong. we're same height now. hahas i think

robin. suspenders are so IN man ..

shujing and her bf qi and i

qi and i with lynette. her red dress is so cute !

ah haha.. i think thats all the photos i took with people.. yay
i wanna put photos of us in the limo and getting ready and stuff.. and other photos that i really liked. but quite tired now.. hurr maybe another day

after we came back.. we changed and went for the after party at platform one. that part of my night was one of the worst nights ever. aiyaii ironic eh .. prom followed by the worst night of my life. i got drunk-puked on the floor-got kicked out of the club hahas. so terrible then i think i spent 2 hours puking. puked over my jeans, shoes, my bag ..
aaah so gross. came home and i think i puked on my bed some more.
bleah woke up and spent most of my day washing my things. i think thats one of the reasons i don't like to go to clubbing much. cos come back sure stink of smoke and alcohol. hmm but its quite nice lar platform one. has these tunnels stuff. then quite fun

what exciting things right. i think i'm too free already. upload so many photos.