YTuesday, November 14, 2006
ever experienced a tight knot ??
you feel so stuck and if u pull harder you get even more tangled but yet its so hard to untangle the knot
haha
sometimes i feel very confused. not knowing whether to turn left or right
sometimes its so hard to make decisions
we wonder who we are
and we ponder who we've become
who our hearts have slumbered
who our feet have stumbled
i don't know what i want anymore don't know what i like or what i don't
i get scared i don't speak up i feel bad i try to help
in othello, the good in Emilia and Desdemmona is exploited by Iago to bring about the downfall of Othello
sometimes no matter how good you try to be or however perfect you are you still undergo internal conflict between you and you.
i think i'd feel even more lost without you by my side always helping me to remain calm in the worst situations. the toughest choices. no matter how bad i feel for doing things i am reminded of Your great love. Your amazing grace and i know i don't deserve any of it but you pour out your love on me anyway. well Lord i'd be so lost without you especially being here alone and all.
loneliness coupled with an inadequacy of vocabulary to explain how i'm feeling.
if i had to tell anyone, it would come out as a blabble of words not making any sense
even i don't understand myself how can anyone understand me.
i don't know why i find it so hard. its simple right
life is simple. keep it simple
you make a choice and don't look back
you make a choice and don't look back
it would be great if choices weren't so hard to make
hmm i'm afraid of what the future will bring. i'm afraid of what my year will turn out like. i don't want to be stuck and yet i wanna have something holding me down so i don't fly away. or at least so i don't drift
i wanna have a substantial existence
send someone to love
i need to rest in arms
keep me safe from harm in the pouring rain
give me endless summer
Lord i feel the cold
feel i'm getting old before my time
i wanna know what i'm put on Earth for. should i grow trees. should i be a actress. hahas
i thought the confusion about yourself and the identity crisis is supposed to happen sometime ago. maybe i'm only STARTING to mature now. its been some time eh. i'm still a little kid. hmm its even worse when you don't know how to express how you feel or when you don't even know what is the problem.
i tend to think too much all the time. especially when i'm stressed and my brain starts to spin.
you are all i need to get me through
you're like a falling star i fell for you
i feel like bad weather
i shouldn't have changed to short pants and a thin jacket. grr i feel so stupid
i feel i am feeling a lot of things right now.
and now after saying how i feel. i feel much better
i think no one can really help. i just need to continue discovering myself. need to continue exploring my feelings and all.
shoE was here with you at